Friday, 5 May 2017

Exhausted

Assalamualaikum,

Sometimes I feel like I am at my lowest point where as I am truly exhausted. Until at a moment, I just want to sujood and hoping that everything will heal by itself when I wake up.

That's the only way that I can do to lighten my burden - through duas in sujood. I believe, at  this moment friends and family can't help much. I know Allah SWT is all hearing. He even knows my deepest heart voice.


“Say (O Muhammad): ‘If I am astray, I only stray to the loss of my own soul: but if I receive guidance, it is because of what my Lord reveals to me. He is All-Hearing, Ever-Near’.” [SÅ«rah Saba’: 50] 

Reflecting back to my early life when I came to Selangor. - everything wasn't come easily. Allah SWT has given me and my sister a lots of trials. I even can't remember each incident that happens in our lives.

The toughest part was taking care of my sister when she's sick. How'd you feel when someone you love is sick ? I'm not sure if it's only me who feels anxious,  restless, unease , worry. That affects me physically and mentally.

Seeing her laying on the bed and unable to do anything. Even talk and eat... Really makes me feel depressed.

I love her and it is so heartbreaking to see her like this.

Plus, I have no one to share my burden with. I mean, at that moment, when something happens to my sister. There's no one with me. And every time that happens, I'm like a fool.

 ''What should I do ?''

'' Who should I call ?''

My mom isn't staying with me. I'm staying with my sister, so that happens almost every month.. I don't know if psychologically that affect my mental health also hahaha..

HOWEVER

Praised to Allah SWT because He chose me among the other siblings or all the Muslims. He loves me and He wants to keep me on the right path. Alhamdulillah.

Other than sujood. I believe in this ayat too:


Where ever am I, what ever am I doing or in what situation I'm facing. I believe this ayat can gives me strength. It can cure my insecurities, stress and nervousness.

It's like showing the power of Almighty Allah SWT. He's the only one can help us in any situations.
He's the only one can protect us and we can depend on Him any time. SubahanAllah..

You can refer here for more information : duas

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